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Thursday, December 15, 2005

Just last week, during breakfast with Kkj and Iz at a coffeeshop near Lk's house, we saw the weirdest thing - a bird without feathers on it's head. Then Kkj just started saying the bird was punk because it "shaved" its head, and tried to take a picture of it. But here's the hilarious part. We all know Iz is a Catholic, and that means he's circumcised. So I started saying that it was a circumcised bird. Kkj started laughing like hell. Well, Iz, like Daniel, doesn't like to be made fun of. So the bugger started kicking me and punching me. Now what the hell is that supposed to mean? That he has "the right" to make ridicule others, but the person who's almost always at the receiving end can't fight back? It's ironic how things go in this brotherhood, like them saying I'm just like Daniel in personality (yes, ego and "alpha male trait" included in the box), when in fact they are the ones who mirror him in ego. They don't realise that everything they do shows the ego in them. Like when they make fun of others. It's proven that people only do so to boost their ego, under the pretext of "having a little fun".

But I also do realise that Daniel's ego has somewhat deflated a little. He doesn't ridicule people as much now. I think his ego has dropped back down from that galaxy above ours, and is currently hovering over the North Pole. Though that's still quite a lot, it's still not as much as before.

And I don't have ego. What I have is called pride. Pride in what I do. It's not in winning most of the time that satisfies me. It's doing things appropriately with accountability to myself and maybe others if the need calls for it. Like learning things like bunny hops on a bicycle and jumps. I don't boast about it and keep the skills for myself. I teach people how to do it. I tell people who are interested. I don't know how people see that as ego. I don't praise myself to the skies. I rather win in life than in petty games of "I'm better that you". I don't things like comparing grades, because that's what ego is all about, letting others know how good you are all the time. But like they say, self praise is international disgrace.

Kenny died at 6:24 am