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Saturday, December 10, 2005

Tra-la-la-la-la. Christmas time is here again. But gee... I wonder why I don't feel the festive joy? Is it because of the extreme commercialism of Christmas? Is it because a week after Christmas I have common tests? Or maybe I'm just not in the mood. I kind of think it's all 3 reasons. We all know the reason for the commercialism started with Coca-Cola, the popular cocain drink company, and it all started going downhill from there. The bastards. I shan't delve further into that. I rather bitch about my common test dates. Who the hell sets it on the 3rd day after New Year's Day? It totally kills the festive spirit. Ngee Ann Poly is run by people who are such killjoys.

The third reason, is because I'm in no mood. I ask people to do a simple thing like a survey for me, and pass it to me on Thursday, and no one does it. They know who they are. And they expect me to do things for them at the drop of a hat. So what if people whom we know have problems and you need to be there for them? You are creating a problem for me because I have to account to my group leader for the delay of the surveys. Do you know what responsibility is? But I know that there are exceptions to that. If someone wants to commit suicide and you have to save the guy, by all means drop what you're doing and do it, because life is precious. But if it's some stupid problem along the lines of "which condom do you think is the best", "how do I pleasure my new girlfriend" or "how do I make her happy", I would say "GET YOUR F**KING PRIORITIES RIGHT!".

I'm really annoyed by how inconsequential my brothers treat me. It's always "Ben is wrong", "Ben's a proud and stupid idiot living in Sin Ming", "Ben is gay", "Ben, why can't you just come down to Bishan, because we don't want to go Sin Ming". QUIT WHINING YOU F**K HEADS. Just because I don't want to stay and play DOTA with you doesn't merit me getting insulted. Think about it. I ask you to go cycling and you always tell me "NO". So why the f**k can't I deny you what you want. I go to Bishan, I have to take a cab home and pay the fare + midnight surcharge myself. If you guys come to Sin Ming and play you can split the fare. And they know I hate being called gay, yet they still persist. They're like parasites, and are only programmed to make my life miserable.

And so what if I like cycling alone? I'm forced by circumstances to do so because they refuse to go with me. And they make so much noise about it. But at least when cycling alone I don't have to submit myself to their incessant name-calling, which gets more irritating day by day. So I don't want to get a girlfriend, because I think that just getting one for the sake of not getting called gay is really stupid, and I know I don't have the time or the finances to support one. And I don't see what getting a girlfriend and having sex is so great. Getting a girlfriend at my age is a want, not a need (unless I really fall in love), and sex is seriously overrated. Also, I don't see the point in discussing my past sex life with people, or to compare notes about it. It's stupid and just a damn ego booster for males who are unsure about themselves.

Well, other than that, the lack of maturity of those who claim to be matured is really amusing. They go on and on comparing their sex lives, changing girlfriends frequently, humiliating others just for the perpetual boost of ego, etc., etc., is really immature. Telling me to get a life is really such irony when you yourself should really look at it and ask yourself how much of a contradiction it really is.

Kenny died at 5:40 am