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Monday, April 21, 2008

It's pretty scary how dreams can be. It's been 7 months since my last relationship. God, singlehood's so good. I'm enjoying it, but... Something seems to be lacking in my life.

My last relationship ended on a sour note, and I haven't thought of or contacted her since then, so it was pretty freaky on a Saturday last month when I was doing weekend clerk duty in camp and I dreamt of Gu Yu. It was so real, so vivid. I dreamt that my parents were fetching me back to camp when my dad stopped the car at a red light. Suddenly, I see her walking up to my car. She knocks on my window and I wind it down. The only sentence that she said to me was "We haven't really broken up yet. You still belong to me." That freaked me out. Imagine taking a nap on a hot afternoon and suddenly waking up because of a weird dream. Wasn't the only one. The next Saturday, I had a dream with my Grandma, who just passed away in Feb, and Gu Yu in it. Wasn't any words said that I recall, but, did they have to appear together? What's the significance?

Anyway, I still can't get over the fact that my Grandma's not around anymore. I miss the weekly visits to her place and the food she cooked. She cooks the best meals I've ever tasted in my life. And recently, I've joked with my mom that even if she became a Grandmother, I don't think her cooking would be of a Grandmother's standard. Guess it was one of those emo days when I see food and am reminded of how good my Granny's cooking was.

Back to the point. I don't know how I could have dreamt of Gu Yu. Hopefully she's alright. It's pretty scary when you have such dreams of a person and she tells you that. Scenario's pretty much like Shutter. The spirit coming back to haunt a lover *shudder*. Pretty weird too, because since that day my shoulders have become sore. I only realized the relevance of the sore shoulders after I watched Shutter 2 weeks back. It's eerily like what my shoulders are feeling now. Sore. Gah. WTF. All I wish for is that Gu Yu's alright. Though we're not in contact anymore, I just hope she's doing fine in her life. I guess now, the only thing I can do now is to say a final farewell to the period of time when she and I were together.

Gah... Going to bed now. Have to be at NUH at 11.15am for a CT scan on my brain. Hopefully there's no tumors or clots within. But if there is, well, I might just get early ORD. LoL.

And if a certain someone reads this, I bet I will hear her say "Not funny lor". Heh...

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